Talk to Psychiatry on Pornography Addiction

Hello,

I was in 4th grade, a great kid who used to secure A grades in exams, pray, read Qur'an and very curious by nature. Once, I opened my computer and was playing around with files and discovered some strange ones. I opened them and found was my older brother's porn stash! I was disgusted but curiousity and boredom got the best of me. Soon, I started to realized what it was.

In 6th grade when my brother moved his files and I couldn't find it anymore, I started to cry because I couldn't watch it. I lost my sleep & apetite. I've tried to quit it countless time & failed. Childhood was also full of mental, physical and emotional abuse. Been using it for more than a decade now.

I've realized that I can't quit on my own. I have to deal with internal issues and pain. I've been looking for a psychology but I'm very scared of being judged. I have never shared my vulnerable side with anyone. Does psychologists judge people? What should I do? Should I seek help? I'm really hop